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Monday, 11 January 2010
~Life is shit~
~Life is shit~Has anyone got any idea what it like to be seen as the reject child in the family, the one who cant do anything, the one whose never been able to do anything with there life... that what i am in my family, and its all my fault. if i did better in school i wouldnt have my mum telling me that i fail in life every arguement we have.
To be honest i still dont know what i want to do in life, i think about it every day, but at the moment the best i ve come up with is this childcare course thing. its something i can do and something that im good at... in fact its the only thing i seem to be good at - besides expressing my self anf my frustration.
Ive had a shit evening this evening ive been told that im a pig/tramp who lives in shit, pretty much :/ and ive also had my dreams been taken away from me, well at least tried to be taken away from me again. my mum is now telling me that she wont let me go to japan if she has anything to say about it. well she doesnt so there.
its my dream and the only thing in the future im trying to work towards, or at leasst figure out a way to work towards.
Nobody and i mean NOBODY will fucking take that away from me. i refuse.
Its my dream and i will stick to it.
Now if youll excuse me ive got some childcare course learning to be doing. ...and some figuring out what a equal opportunities policy is :/ i mean i know what it is... i just dont know how to start writing a draft for one... i think ill just move onto the next activity.
Anyhu.
I'm gone
~Kai
Labels: childcare, Course, Dreams, Life, Long entry, mother, plans and dreams, Rant
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1 Comments:
When I was a kid, the world was very tough to me, because my world was limited to my family and school. As I got older, the world went bigger, and I feel safer and easier. Especially since I got job, left home, and married to my hubby, I found the world was so much different from that of what I saw in my childhood.
I felt it quite unfair that we cannot choose parents. My hubby's mom is even nicer than my real mom who passed away a few years ago.
Whatever your mom says, it's your life. You'd better protect your dream from her. You're lucky you know what job you are interested in. You can come to Japan after you save money by yourself. You're still young, you've got a lot of chances. ;)
Take care, and all the best!
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